A moment by moment battle

Now that I am looking back at the worst of my days I can see them more clearly for what they were and articulate what it’s like more clearly. It’s like stumbling over every hurdle whilst running a marathon with no option of stopping. Or maybe that’s just me. I don’t give up. I will…

Agony, Anguish + Anger

I’d started to have some better days. Even went out AT NIGHT for that business event I was talking about. I remain a finalist which meant I got out of an acceptance speech. Phew! Then one day when I was determined to look after the girls on my own for the first time in a…

My new life

Mmmmmmm. Breakfast. Yummy. This must be a familiar sight to many with a chronic illness. But at this point in time I’m lucky that only one of these tablets is synthetic. I have a feeling that I’ve figured out what’s going on at a point in time early enough to be able to recover from…

Fibromyalgia for life, yo

Have you been with me my whole life, fibromyalgia? Last night was a sea of tears. Weeping like I haven’t wept for a long time. Sobbing into the pillow until it was soaking kind of tears. My life is falling apart kind of tears. But somehow, I know that really it’s not. I don’t have…

F*** You Fibromyalgia

Day one living with fibromyalgia. Or knowing I have it at least. Last night was not much different to the last 6 months. Restless night with aches and pains and no hope of comfort. Waking up stiff beyond belief and sensitive to even the smallest sensations of pain that movement seems to bring with it…